Carpe Noctem

School is slowly coming to an end, as we say goodbye to another year of our High School lives, and enjoy the summer for as long as we can before we re-enter for another grueling year of school.

Friday was probably the most anticipated event of the school year, BOTC. I thought it was a great event, and the events looked fun. Hopefully next year I’ll find the time (and the energy) to stay after and practice for some events. The energy was unbelievable in there, and my voice was as raspy as anyone else in the crowd. Overall I had a great time, and got to take my mind off of things by reuniting with an old friend from middle school. The big 3 was reunited for one night, plus Kevin of course.

Yesterday was an okay day. Not really much to blog about here, but I got a haircut (Pretty much lost all my hair..), and played a solid round of tennis.It became clear that the weather is starting to kick in. ><

Today was one of the hottest days we’ve seen so far, I believe it topped 80? Woke up and got to play some tennis with my coach. Worked on a lot of stuff, and hopefully I can get enough practice in time to be able to play Sectionals. If not, then hopefully I can work my way up the rankings again by playing tournaments. After tennis, I got home and showered to get ready to help Justin with his Aristocrats interview. I can’t really say much about the interview, except the fact that the man we intervied (Geoff- Creative Director), left us mind fucked by the end of the interview. I recorded the basics, but he really told us the story off the record. It was so inspiring, and he’s definitely someone that I look up to now in the clothing industry. After that I went to Westgate, and Mitsuwa! My mom is officially a Mitsuwa fan, especially with their food court + Curry Udon! Yee Yee. So yeah I got home after that, and pretty much chilled for the night.

Waking up early for a trip to SF on Memorial Day, gonna take my mom to Ferry Building, hopefully a farmers market will be there (my moms a sucker for farmers markets). I’m hoping to get a good sleep tonight, that is, if I can manage to sleep. I’m so high on life it’s ridiculous.

With only 9 days left in school, I’m trying to go off on a high note. These last few weeks have been amazing, and I’m hoping to keep it up for the last part of the year. The next few days will be tough, transitioning from being a lazy ass to hitting the books hard for finals week. Things have been overall great lately, with a few bumps along the way. After tonight, it’s become evident that after the rain, there actually is sunshine. I’m feeling good, I’m feeling fortunate, and I’m ready to finish what has been a long, hard, yet exciting year.

Good Night.

After talking to Bonnit and Cynthia, I’m still iffy on what to do. I guess I’m leaning towards their direction, but of course, it’s easier said than done. As each day passes, another day is wasted, and I’m just trying to keep level and not go crazy. I spent some time thinking about this earlier, imagined playing the scene over and over in my head. I guess it’s not that bad, even though I find it completely ridiculous -0-. Maybe one day when I’m feeling more daring than usual. Until then, I’m just sitting back, and chillin with life.

I hate people that try too hard to fit in. Can’t really elaborate on this, but I’m sure you guys know what I mean. Sure it’s somewhat tolerable at first, but after a while you just end up looking like an idiot. I just wish people would stick to their roots instead of pretending to be someone that they aren’t, just so that others won’t see them as what they were before, or take advantage of them. Being into cultures such as clothing and such isn’t an overnight process, it’s a lifestyle that you grow into. I, as well as everyone else, get annoyed when someone calls themselves to be a photographer just because they own a Nikon/Canon/Whatever. Being a photographer isn’t about the equipment that you use, it’s about creating pictures in your head, and expressing them through the lens. I could spend a fortune on equipment for a camera, but my pictures will still lose to the professional using factory stock equipment. I guess this relates to the whole hype, being someone you aren’t. Just because you wear skinny jeans, ride a fixie, Listen to the same shit everyone else is listening to, and wear some Zapatos doesn’t make you “cool.”Okay scratch that, people might actually like that (Don’t ask my why), but do people ever look at themselves in the mirror and ask why they do what they do? Sure I wear skinny jeans, but to be honest, I honestly feel like I was wearing skinny jeans before it started taking over the school. But why do I wear skinny jeans? It just suits my body, since I’m skinny as hell. And no offense to fixie riders. I like fixies, they’re simple bikes that are great to ride but some people buy them not for the passion of bike riding, but because everyone else is talking about them. And Zapatos? I used to want boat shoes because they were perfect for the season. But with everyone wearing them now, things have gotten out of hand. And come on, Boat shoes are an American classic. Why the hell would people buy boat shoes made by Vans? Maybe I will come around to buying a pair of boat shoes one day, but if I do, I’m sticking to the classic Sperry’s or Sebagos. Sure, it’ll cost more than Vans, but at least I’ll be able to say that mines are real boat shoes, made from a brand that specializes (and created) the actual boat shoe. I can’t stand people that spend tons of money buying stuff not because they like it, but because other people like it. Sure it might be “cool” but it doesn’t make you genuine. Go ahead and hate me for this, I’m just speaking the truth. Good Night.

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Who are looked right through.

The ones who waste their time trying to convince girls that not every man is an asshole. This goes out to the ones who have good intentions, yet their intentions are overlooked due to stereotypes and false labeling. This is for the guys who put their heart into a relationship and aren’t fearful of being teased for being “whipped.” This is for the guys who put up with a girls bitchiness because even when she shows her ugly side, you still find her beautiful.

And this is to the girls who sometimes accuse the nice guy of being “fake”: Not every guy is the same. Open your eyes and realize that you’re past doesn’t have to resemble your future. Don’t judge people based on assumptions, you’ll make an ass of yourself. 

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It sucks how yesterday and today, I sat here looking at this text page, wondering what I would write. I didn’t want it to be too dull, but I didn’t want it to be too specific. Yesterday, and most likely today, I will exit this page without posting anything onto my blog, afraid of the criticism or reactions that I would receive. There are so many things that I would love to say, but unfortunately it feels like the world is watching my every move. The past couple days I’ve sat here, with millions of thoughts running through my head, and I was never able to put those thoughts down, and have the courage to press “Create post.” It kind of sucks how I can have such a great day, but at the end of the day, become sad at the general picture of what’s going on. If I could, I would like to forget everything, to go back to the simple stuff, but something just isn’t willing to let me go like that. I wish people would stop playing with my head, pulling me into something so deep that I find it impossible to get out. To be honest though, why do I stay? Because I see something better than what’s at hand. We fight for what we believe in, and if you want something that bad, you fight for it. I’m not sure whether I’m still “fighting,” because, after all, it feels like the world is blind. I’m actually looking forward to playing tennis with Caserta next week, as I have plenty of things to talk to him about. I guess he’s my punching bag when I’m afraid to post my thoughts on Tumblr, for everyone to see. I mean, if I could I would, seriously. So many thoughts run through my head at night, and so many “What if’s” and “Maybe’s.” Coulda, Woulda, Shoulda. I’m getting tired, this is a bit odd for me to stay up this late on a school night. I guess I’ll end it here, it’ll be something to sleep on.

-B

Usually I try not to blog about my day, but today was just TOO good.

Woke up earlier than usual for a Thursday, since it’s a late start and all. Got ready to go to the ortho to get my braces off! It was the end of a long and hard journey Haha. Got back to school by like 10:30, so I missed part of French. It was pretty coo tho, French was chill. Got to race Andrew in Garvin’s class. I mean… I’d like to say I won, he would beg to differ. Ha!

Pretty much hid from Kevin and Justin for half of lunch. Told those fools I was in LA for a Supreme signing LOL. But yeah chilled with them for a while. Then went to Math, and Owned that test! I heard great things from people took it, so I was looking forward to a great score. I finished pretty early, so I spent the time going over. Turns out I got 99.5/100. Yeee! Highest score I’ve ever gotten on her class, and it happened to be on the last test of the year. Funny though, since my previous highest was a 94..which happened on the first test of the year.. -.-“

After Math, went to get some Red Velvet Cupcakes. Red Velvet’s are the shiiit. Aha. Changed in the boys locker room, and played countless round of HORSE with Kevin. My jumper was so bi polar.. overall it was a good shooting day though!

So after 7th my dad was waiting in the parking lot so I got in the car to go back to the Ortho to get my retainer. Had to go through a lecture about taking care of them, all that stuff. And then they gave me before and after pics of my treatment! Which I will probably never show anyone! :D But yeah. the retainer isn’t the wire but some invisalign looking thing. Tasted gross. My doc put it on and I almost threw up when it first hit my tongue. Bitter as fuuuck! Haha 

After that I came home, and saw my new Tourneau glasses on my bed! :D Currently wearing them right now, not much of a degree change but I was in need of new glasses (Anyone who has classes with me would know that I push my glasses up like every 5 seconds of my life -0-).

And then my aunt came in and gave me some stuff that my cousin meant to give me, since she works at Macy’s. I got a Kipler Messenger Bag and a Lucky Brand Watch. Not your typical urban street brand, but the watch looks pretty dope. The bag I’ll definitely rock if I’m ever dressed in something more than a tee shirt and jeans =).

Now I’m just chillin with my retainer, tryna make this day go on for as long as possible. Maybe I’ll hit up En Soiree tonight, people have been telling me to go. And Fuddruckers tomorrow! Shits gonna be dope!